Every Little Thing Is Gonna Be Alright

It is official that my boyfriend and I (Patrick) broke up Sunday morning, which is yesterday. It's been a hard time for me to stop crying for a long time, but I actually cried for like 2 hours! Of course you would understand if you really had a long term relationship like I did. So anyway, after texting with him and clearing about what we are going to do after our break up. We attended youth the other day because he teaches dance workshop in our church. I won't go with them anymore since I don't want to see him for the meantime, but I will be sending some food for them as my share. It's going to be tough but I'd rather not see him while I'm in the process of healing and in the phase of being hurt. Whenever I think of it, even if I'm doing something, it still makes my eyes water even though it's closed and as I open them tears fall. But for all of this I know that everything happens for a reason, and God has a purpose with it. If ever he will be the one for me in the future then it's going to be us, right? So we don't have to hurry with the things in our life that we want to have or that we want to happen because if you get everything you want, then you won't live a happy life. I love him with all my heart and I know he knows that. I've grown with him for the 5 years and almost 6 months with him, in this relationship it has been a good experience even though the break up is almost as losing my own life. But I know that I can get through this for the Lord is my strength. I want to thank Patrick for making our relationship a ride for us and that can never be replaced. If I had to choose after 5 years, he's still going to be the one that I would want to marry. But in this cycle of life, trials are meant to be a part of any relationship that everyone has to face it. Because that is where we are going to be mature. It's for our own good. I love my Patrick soo much and I hope to see him before I leave this country by next year to continue my dreams to travel the world.

There's a lot of things I haven't said yet so I have to start now.

I think it was 2 weeks ago when I had to go to the hospital because I was having a hard time to pee because it hurts and found out that I have Urinary Tract Infection because I stopped drinking water replacing to energy drink that I was addicted to. I tool medicine for a week and kept on drinking water all day and all night. Now It doesn't hurt anymore so I've learned my lesson there. I decided to stop drinking beer and just continue with red wine, but of course it should be only for special occasions now. I kind of like it because I think I'm clean and honestly, my skin is glowing! My mom said that it's because I don't drink alcoholic drinks anymore and other chemical drinks same for salty and spicy foods which is my choice of taste. So I also stopped eating junk foods, such as chips, potato strings and soda/cola. Every week I go to the grocery store to buy some low-fat milk and fruits. But of course I'm a girl and I need sweets so I got me some chocolate chip cookies, and yes I buy the same thing every week.
Now that I'm starting to have a healthy life starting on what I eat and also on how I eat 'em and I think I'm doing a great job. So I am going to continue to stay healthy and strong to avoid sickness and disease.

Tomorrow will be another day, or would I say night, at work. I just wish that we are going to have our 1 month off this coming July since we are going to be in a different place. And I am also praying that my Mom, my brother, and I would find a new place to stay to start out a new life again. I can't wait 'til Dad gets here in the first week of July and he has my camera that I bought from his friend and that's where I'm going to make myself busy. So there, it's a long blog and the next time I'm going to blog hopefully there will be pictures too.

Lord you are my strength, my power, deliverer, provider, savior, shelter and my help in times of need. I thank you for showing us how great you are, and truly you are our beautiful.